Sometimes you have to trust the journey and jump!
From Elle Luna’s The Crossroads of Should and Must: Find and Follow your Passion:
“If you can see your path laid out in front of you step by step, you know it’s not your path,” Joseph Campbell said. “Your own path you make with every step you take. That’s why it’s your path.”
The tabula rasa is the blank page, a new roll of film, the pure canvas of white–unsullied, uncompromised. The term applies to more than just the objects of our creation; it is also a state of mind where nothing is scripted–a place where there is no map, no case study, and no right answer, and the only person who can decide what to do next is you.
I have been teaching for 11 years now. I have been dreaming for a few years of taking a sabbatical. I have poured myself into teaching and union work tirelessly and want to take a step for myself. I have felt this whisper to embrace the now and travel while I am able. Many have recommended I teach abroad, yet I didn’t want to be tied to teaching. I wanted a freedom of choice, of letting the journey take me to the next place. I applied twice for the Fulbright, knowing it would mix my love of learning and travel. Last year it didn’t happen. The timing wasn’t right. This year when it came around to apply again, I thought I had missed my window. When realizing I had not, I pulled up my application edited, shifted focus, and submitted my dream into the inter-web. Holding my breath for months I waited. I heard back, making it to the interview round. I talked for 7 minutes on the phone and wondered, was I able to express myself, my passion, and my goal for research well enough in 7 minutes?! I waited some more. The day I got my email I anxiously opened it. “Congratulations!” The time was right. The water perfect. I knew it was time to jump. The 2018-2019 school year I will be taking a leave from teaching. I will let the world be my classroom and the journey lead me to my lessons. I am scheduled to be in New Zealand from February to June, probably a little before and after. I will be researching whole-school implementation and professional development of restorative practices in New Zealand public schools. I am looking at the list of places I want to go or experiences I haven’t given myself the time to experience. I am embracing it all. Telling myself to listen to the creative voice inside and not the critique. If you want to join me for this journey, I will use this platform and my Instagram to share along the way.